Life is a whirlwind
and I can't slow down. Life is pretty circular. In some ways it feels like freshman year of high school again, poring over books and trying to soak up as much knowledge as possible. Not really having accomplishments or a direction or knowing exactly what I’m interested in. Success can’t come without blood, sweat, and tears, and I feel like I’ve coasted off of my hard work from 9th-10th grade for the past several years (I was kinda just relying on luck and not really putting in effort to learn skills that I didn’t already have), but now it’s time to put in some raw effort again. External validation from having a place in society due to your accomplishments feels good, but so does the internal validation from knowing that you put every moment of your day to use and worked toward an internal goal of yours, albeit far away. It’s been a while since I was obsessed with a textbook, or trying to learn a completely novel concept, but it feels really good. For this reason, I’m glad that most...